Nevermind the Answer. What is the question?

This morning he asked me a question I had heard rolling around in his head for a while. I was catching my breath, waiting for my heart to find its proper pace, and I saw that look on his face. The look of words almost forming themselves in his throat. So I asked him and he said nothing, but then he asked me anyways. The way he said it is one of the factors, and I know I overanalyze. He said that since we were sleeping over so much we should move in together, and when I replied by asking him if he thought so he said why not, trying his best to keep it light. And I know why he does that, he tries to keep something important he says seeming only half serious because it would be too heavy to leave his mouth otherwise. I know from the way he's teased and danced around and alluded to the subject so many times that he didn't just bring it up without thought, he knew what he was saying. But that in itself makes me nervous, posing it lightly when it feels anything but. And I want to say in reply to his why not, why would it be a good idea? And the thing of it is, my fears aren't about him. Even the ones that have everything to do with him aren't about him. I've had so much heartache and my life has been in such turmoil that I don't know if I could heal from another upset, scars haven't finished forming from the last one. And I'm afraid of letting myself place him in my life as a constant because somehow I think if I do that then it will not be true. I'm a shy person, I even have a hard time voicing things to those close to me, and recent years have made no improvements on that. I don't know how I could keep him and love him as I want to, being this way. Many small things occur to me, I don't know where I want to work, or go to school, I don't know if I could adjust to his habits and he to mine. But he said, we have to find out. And I think he could convince me, if he realised it. Because I would love to trust that it was safe to fall asleep in his arms, cook breakfast together, plan our day together. I can't imagine anything feeling more peaceful. But there are doubts, and that fact alone is enough to stop me from daydreaming too wildly.
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